Saturday, March 31, 2007
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You
and the reason is You [x3]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
This song seems to speak out what part of my feelings.. Though i had a more suitable one.. I couldn't find it to play on my blog.. So i settled for this.. Yeah.. Wait till i Find a better Song Host.. IWeb sux.. LOL!!
Anyway.. Went to church today.. Was abit late but felt God's presence anyway.. Somehow i cried.. For Jesus.. Who took all that pain for us and yet we remain as sinners.. I remembered tears Welling in my eyes when the pastor spoke of how God suffered in our teachings today.. But tears rolled down my face when i sang the worship song and read the lyrics.. Somehow I "touched" the lyrics and understood its meaning in my heart.. And it was so real that i cried out to jesus.. thankful for his sacrifice..And Yet crying for the unneccessary torture he had to go through.. Cuz he loved us too much.. As the bible says.. Jesus could have easily summoned 12 legions of angels in an instance and all those who were persecuting him would have been killed.. But he didn't.. Cuz he loved us too much.. He went through so much.. Not only thru emotional pain but spiritual and physical pain as well.. Emotional cuz the ppl who he is dying for is jeering him or have abandoned him(his disciples), And spiritual cuz At the instance on the cross.. He was carrying the entire world's sins.. Even those who were not borned.. For that moment, he was the most sinful man on world.. Not cuz he had sinned.. but becuz he was paying for everyone's sins.. It was so intensely sinful that even God had to turn away cuz he was perfect(Intolerant to sins).. And at that moment, he was all alone, with alot of sins he hadn't commit and the crazy pain.. Yet he did not give up.. For this.. I was moved to tears.. Thank you Jesus.. Forever i will proclaim you as my Lord and Saviour.
After church, went to eat.. Had to skip the guitar training session cuz i going out with Leo.. the session started at 3.30.. I was like suppose to meet leo at 4 plus.. but he only came at 6.20.. zzz.. think he mistook the timing.. lol.. Anyway.. Cuz Plaza Sing too crowded.. We went to the Cathay Cinema near it.. nice place.. Bought the tickets for PathFinder.. Had tried calling Huda, Tabitha, Lim Woan, Yanni, Patson, Shirlene and Charlotte.. But all cannot sia.. Zzzz.. It was like 6.40 and the movie was scheduled to start at like 7.25.. So i brought Leo to Park Mall and Ate at Hans.. Haha.. Dunno why.. I guessed he likes Hans.. And i was right.. (gals out there who may like him.. Now u know what he likes.. Hahazz..) Anyway.. Was nearly late for the movie.. Went in at 7.38.. It was just starting(screw the adverts.. Hahazz.. But i am thankful for it this time round..) :)Enjoyed the movie alot.. The Ghost was so cool la.. Hope i can be like him.. :)
Anyway.. all in all it was a really nice day today.. Miss my Jie, shirlene and steph already.. Miss J.T.. and christina too.. Miss her cuteness.. :) Awww.. She so cute can?? plus quite pretty.. But i am not her type so u guys can forget about me liking her la.. hahazz.. Well.. Thats all for now.. Miss you all.. ALOT!!! God look over you all manxx.. :) Cheerios..
carved upon my life at 10:35:00 AM